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i'm thinking thinking thinking of tying the gloomstalker/assassin build into astarion's characterisation here; since his rogue and charlatan background stems primarily from his years in enslavement to cazador - having to deceive marks, stalk the shadows, likely lockpicking and trespassing (although for non-residential places only, since, vampire). his skills as an archer/ranger now could also be influenced by his life pre-vampirism. thinking about his parentage but also his being an elf and having natural inclinations for magic and bow/swordsmanship. his father teaching him how to use a bow and arrow as a child to hunt for skins to create leather/furs (since i headcanon his father as having been a tailor), his mother connecting him with nature and magic, as a lover of art. the assassin aspect i think could naturally come about after being tadpoled and thrust into this whirlwind adventure, since they're constantly fighting and killing and fighting some more and he enjoys stabbing. whereas before, he wasn't really required to kill people, just entice them back to cazador. SO ANYWAY if i throw all of that into a mixing pot, i just like that even after 200 years of being forced to become someone else, there are still traces of his former self and his family within him, even though he, himself, doesn't remember them
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ł a study.#anyway this is a jumble of thoughts#that i'm running with and will likely expand/alter#as i continue to do more research but some of it is coming#off of my other headcanons so đ#he's still a good little thief though never forget#and as a gloomstalker he's still heavily based in the shadows#so it's easy to tie into his character#and i always prefer assassin rogue for him as just a personal preference in game#so why not enforce it here#i'll take input from any experts out there though#since i'm still relatively new to bg3/dnd
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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#hod#hod lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form#lobcorp spoilers#and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic#other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her#i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally#she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en#up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression#tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on#her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees#she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health#sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work#but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager#yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the#way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does#yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what#is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and#not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing#its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good#sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where#her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling#as she is interrupting their free time in the company#which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there#but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end#EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough
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More Morrow, this time featuring the bestest puppy Yore
#dragon age#dragon age origins#dao#grey warden#warden tabris#morrow doesn't look very wardenly most of the time#she only really spends the time in ostagar in warden armor and after that the blue padding is the closest she gets to the uniform#why care for uniform who's gonna enforce it alistair?#however I also harbour great dislike towards the ingame light armor at least on women#especially the felon's coat was terribly disappointing#sounded so cool and what do I get? same armor different color#a crime I tell you#anyway I cobbled together her armor design here from warden concepts leliana's inquisition armor and some aspects of the felon's coat#nocturnal arts
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WAIT Elle has box braids in s3??? I could cry
I don't think she had bad hair in s1 or s2, but I'm excited that they're actually giving the Black girls Black hairstyles instead of having them wear it out.
Before, it felt like the (all-white, for context) hair department was just ignorant about Black hair, so they put wigs on the Black actresses and only did styles that also work on nonblack hair for their own sake/convenience. This theory was especially supported by the fact that Tara, whose 4c hair couldn't really be styled the same as nonblack hair, wore a twistout that would take literal hours to do every day, but she had box braids in s2! and Elle has box braids now!! I'm so excited!!!
I also feel like this fits her bold, fashion-loving personality so much better than leaving her hair out. Our hair is basically its own accessory, and the long box braids are very feminine. Again, I'm not saying not having a protective style isn't feminine or fashionable (I myself am a fashion girlie with an Afro), but having one is another outlet for her creativity, and I'm glad they're recognizing that now.
#shimmer's thoughts#heartstopper#elle argent#i have heard that apparently black people aren't allowed to have braids in uk schools? which is legitimately fucking wild#although it kinda looks like this had a big turning point in 2022 according to a quick google? but i'm not 100% sure#it depends on how much influence the ehrc has over the government. which doesn't seem to be much#we do have hair dress codes with huge anti-black bias here but no braids usually isn't in there explicitly#or something that's enforced afaik#all that to say it might just be that this happens to be a summer season and that's why their hair is like that#although even then I don't think Tara would be doing a twistout every day#i think slicking takes way less time so she'd probably be doing that if they didn't like afros either#she might though. i don't know exactly why she would do that but she might decide to do that#also to clarify again i'm not saying not having a protective style as a black girl is bad or negative or anything#i'm saying in the context of the hair and makeup team being completely white#and alice oseman being a white person who originally only gave the comic characters wavy/barely curly hair#them not giving them protective(/realistic for Tara) styles was sus. and this is a welcome change#i mean. we haven't seen Tara's hair for this season yet. and they really love that twistout#so maybe i shouldn't get my hopes up yet. but i'll give them their flowers for this at least
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trans & intersex people get dragged into everything just by virtue of existing. just existing is enough to make people angry. we just try to be normal and live normal lives and be good people like everyone else. having to live thru so much vitriolic transphobia & intersexism in the world which directly correlates to how you get treated by strangers every day all day just cause of some crybaby losing a sport against someone who is literally cis just because she ASSUMED she was trans is such a crazy experience.
I miss when people knew less about trans & intersex people. at least it was easier to fly under the radar. now itâs everywhere⌠like we are not already struggling enough without having to be dragged into debates about our existence whenever a white woman gets her feelings hurt. and billionaires feeling the need to âspeak outâ against our existence like theyâre the gender authority. it was never about us in the first place, but transphobes are so angry and bitter that they will always find a way to make us feel unsafe. itâs bizarre and a sad way to live. I canât imagine how much unsafer it must feel for black trans & intersex folk rn.đ
#how can u be critical of gender but still enforce arbitrary rules and expectations surrounding it#I donât get it#why do other peoples bodies matter so much. why do you care about other peoples genitals so much#.txt#transphobia tw#trans#intersexism tw#transgender#vent#ok to reblog#idk Iâm just depressed today#itâs like ok. so what if an athlete SOMEHOW makes it to the Olympics DESPITE the societal and medical difficulties it would take to get tha#far in the first place. IF they were allowed to compete at all. like what they shouldnât be allowed to play a sport? cause of genitals?#cause âmen are inherently better/faster/strongerâ? And thatâs being critical of gender? thatâs somehow fair??#Feminism 101 here yall#/s
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gonna be so honest marcilleâs Thing About Death is infinitely more interesting to me than her dynamic with falin
#like donât get me wrong I do like them. but theyâre fairly normal all things considered#marcilleâs quest to make everyone live an equal amount of time is FASCINATING.#bc like. I donât even think that sheâs Wrong per se#sure living a thousand years is a crazy burden to put on someone#but also sheâs right about the deep systemic inequality of the lands stemming in part from long lived races (but especially elves who have#2x the lifespan of even gnomes) being able to construct/enforce dynasties in a way short lived races simply arenât#but what the fuck are you gonna do to combat that that isnât infinitely worse. messing with someoneâs lifespan is. bad#n obviously so is segregation thatâs a part of how dunmeshiâs world got so messed up in the first place#especially in regards to demihumans (canonically a pseudoscientific category created to oppress The Other)#there is a deep deep sociopolitical rift that lifespans cause in dunmeshiâs world#n that IN COMBINATION with the simple fact that marcille will outlive everyone sheâs ever loved????#I can completely understand why she was driven to go for something so extreme#she was definitely Wrong yk. but what even is right here#well. I guess sheâll have a long time. to think about all that#sanders bullshit
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i hope they fight (canât read past this point)
#l e m m e i n n n n n n n n n n#never thought that iâd ever find something in common with mr face reveal but here we are (dudeâs a retail pharmacy cashier. poor guy :()#i need to know if the pharmacy manages to survive the encounter#i hope he calls out her bs and enforces the â1 lxl gummy per personâ rule to extremes#this is unfair i canât even skip ahead to the ch 3 previews bc this site doesnât even have them yet auaaaaaaa#but hm. looking at this and the calendar⌠plus chizuutanâs planner from doutan kyohi⌠this encounter takes place on 1 august#july and august are the only 2 consecutive months of 31 days after all. sooooooooo#so ig itâd put the nonfan release somewhere in july⌠hmmmmmmmmmm#which would kinda make sense i think⌠in the nonfan novel hiyoâs contract was supposed to end in august⌠right? i canât rem lol#hmmmmmmmmmmmm. but thatâd only be the case if the chizuutan mvs complement the [redacted] anime/kawaikute gomen manga timelinesâŚ#i hope we get to see her pov of the hiyo makeover for the nagisa visit lmao#but then again. maybe lxl have had 2 separate gummy collabs and im just overthinking it.#idk why am i wasting my precious lunch break thinking about lxl and chizuutan anyway iâve had enough of them ausuxyshxhshhshajsjshshs#chizuutan chizpost
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SHAME!! SHAME ON YOU CAIT!!
Spoilers in Tags v
#Season 2 thoughts:#everybody here sucks#i knew vi was gonna be an enforcer and im still disappointed#I would die for Jinx and that weird little child#holy shit mels alive! my wife!#another sevika midriff moment!? they treat us so well here#i would like to please do unspeakable yhings to sevika#CAIT UR ON THIN ICE#why victor ourple#arcane s2 shitposting#arcane spoilers#my post
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AAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH WE GOT ARCANEEEEEEEEEE
#MY GOOOOOD JAYCE MAKING VIKTOR?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?! AND OG COURSE CAITS MOM OOOOOF#cant believe were getting angsty caitvi breakup music video second thing in the show aldjaksk they got PRIORITIES#CAIT AND MEL WHEN TWO QUEENS JOIN THEIR POWER TO MAXIMIZE THEIR JOINT SLAY#vi just at caits house all this time.... like probably a week at most but akdhsksnsl#cait hasnt shed a single tear its going down down#oh wow......... yes she didnt think but whats worse is that vi will end up accepting WHYYY#vi will change the enforcers from the inside.....no fucking way qkdhaksjska#YEEEEEEEEESSSS CAITLYYYYYYNNNNNNN#VIIIIIIIIIIIIII#did ambessa really orchestrate the attack with the underground??? no fucking way but that would make so much sense#damn what did caitlyn see in that computer bc she switched up quick!!! and vi too!!! she went from call off the attack to ill join them#well of course the attack changed theit minds but vi still said to call off the ttack after that....#ALSO vi wiping off caits tears.... caitlyn just crying on her chest like throwing herself on her.... no kiss even yet.... but i like this#i love the tension..... the courting you would call it#what will viktor think when he comes back wrong (FOR SURE) because of jayce when he was soooo accepting of his death... kind of#like he knew he was gonna die and he did what he could with the hextech but i think it was not out of desperation#it was just ambition bc thats what he can do... jayce became councilor bc of ambition and viktor kinda saved his own life#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#everybody going thru it in the intro credits and ekko just doing flips akdhaksnsla#jayce hiding from the spotlight.... NOW??? Also viktor is givning diavolo vibes in the jojo 5 intro too aldjaksjksnsl slay#sevika defending jinx.... never thought i would see the day#they did NOT orchestrate the attack look at this mess#OF COURSE SKY IS IN THE HEXTECH!!!! OOOOOOOOOOHHHHH THE VOICES VIKTOR!!! LISTEN TO THEM!!!#jayce promised to destroy it omggg of course....... the confession......#it was affection that held us together..... what are we..... christ why is he so serene and logical.... the hexcore yeah#viktor will bring a class war the likes weve never seen#jinx has claggors googles.... which vi has after the timeskip.....#they are here..... and that arm is gonna cost sevika dlahdksns viktor savior of the underground... i used to pray for times like these....
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Metalheads who don't like/respect Babymetal bc their "look" isn't, what? Traditionally metal? are so cringe. Like bro it's an alternative music scene we're supposed to say FUCK tradition????? What's wrong w y'all... Embarrassing
And also they are missing out bc Babymetal fucking rules
#its like pol who are like punk is only if you look like *this* and im like. you are asking me to conform to a societal expectation? in PUNK?#like what. the fuck are you talking about. NON CONFORMITY CAN LOOK LIKE ANYTHING. THATS THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT OF NOT CONFORMING#yeah i dont always dress like a typical punk but thats bc the clothes tend to he fucking uncomfortable or a lot of work and i dont care#like why would i put so much effort into looking a certain way... in... a nonconforming alternative group... why would i conform... what#like the way you look doesnt fucking mean shit. a real punk is someone who actually fucking thinks and acts like a punk.#thats all that matters#punk ain't about how you look or causing random mayhem its a fucking. lifestyle. its a culture snd belief system about the world.#its about saying fuck you to the way things are if the way things are isnt fucking fair. its about community and taking care of your fellows#its about safety in numbers against a ruling power that wants people who are different to stop existing.#the mayhem is for a reason. its to say you cant fucking keep us down and if you try we WILL fight back. you cannot keep us down.#thats the POINT.#idk how my post about people being snobs about metal and missing out on good music bc of it turned into a rant about punk ideology but.#well. here we are. i have a tendency of going off on tangents in the tags.....#point is. trying to enforce a 'norm' in a non traditional alternative genre is fucking stupid and against the whole POINT of the thing#and i think it fucking DUMB that ppls get so caught up in appearances when its never been about that
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Okay, we're like
actually finally reading Seekers
(and by "reading" I mean listening to the Lost in Translationmon fan audiobook version at work)
We've finished the first chapter and I am tentative about most of it aside from the fact that Loogamon is a little shit and we love that for them.
#sky talks#digimon#digimon seekers#we've been putting seekers off for so long mostly because the inclusion of police in a digimon story is uhhh#look if i'm gonna be real our savers rewatch started out mostly as us wanting to reevaluate that series#because we wanted to see if it held any real commentary on the nature of law enforcement#(to that end i think savers did considering its main villain was enabled by the powers of the government into mass digimon murder)#i really hope i have something positive to say about seekers' relationship to law and law enforcement#but it's too early to say now#like i think at the end of chapter 1 we're supposed to probably feel like the digipolice are kind of inept#but also the scene they were introduced in did me no favors in trusting how this novel will handle them#considering it started off with a âlook at how bad the digital world is because of humans!â#compared it to colonialisation#and then introduced us to the digipol taking out the code cracker espimons#it came across in a way that we were supposed to assume that code crackers are to blame for why the layer we've seen sucks so bad#and like yeah loogamon backs that up by talking about discarded cracker digimon but also#from loogamon it doesn't feel as gross as when it's paired with some âreally skating around the edges of the law hereâ shit#idk#we'll have to see
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I think I understand now why I'm honest to Stars nervous every time I interact with online communities like the animation meme one, the furry one, etc.
It's for the exact reason why I'm terrified of talking to former classmates who entered nursing school.
A huge majority of the vocal minority never left behind their grade school bully mentality. I'm not kidding, throwing insults, or even calling anyone childish. This is as big of a problem as it is in nursing, and it takes lives in the exact same way. I'll explain.
Having had family who were in the medical field, I have heard utter horror stories about one side of nursing. Not even in a medical malpractice sense. But how some of them can have the sweetest, "empath" mask on when they are around you, but will smear your name behind your back at the very least, try to get you disciplined/fired (especially if you're a "rival" nurse/student) at unfortunately common worst.
Now, because I am a firm believer in nuance, I have to state that for as many malpracticing nurses there are, there are just as many nurses who put their patients before their ego always. I myself have had several nurse family members who didn't have even the slightest infraction to their records, and retired late despite how their patients AND fellow MPs yearned for them to stay.
But, it has to be said: It only takes one to kill. One word, one intentional slip-up, one accidental pill too many. The side of the accuser only need speak, while the side of the victim has to frantically fight for their right to the role- to the life- they worked so hard for.
Why? Well, because it's easier to destroy the perceived enemy than it is to build your own self up. Destroying the competition has been a tale as old as time, and it can ALWAYS be for the pettiest of reasons.
If you want more of your supervisor's attention for better odds at better pay, intimidate and belittle nurses of your standing or lower so they're demotivated, demoralized, and struggling in comparison.
Hell, if you just don't like another nurse, watch their every move, and rat on the few, harmless, honest mistakes they made!
Who cares how many patients die, either because of a growing lack of nurses, or because of straight up nurse-on-nurse sabotage!
Do you see where I'm going with this?
Do you see how people can put the grandstanding of their own ego above entire LIVES?
The near-homeless artist whose callout you are mindlessly reblogging, what of their life?
The kinky trans woman?
The genderqueer person with neopronouns and "conflicting" labels?
The literal teenager who doesn't- and CANNOT- know better because of their horrifically bigoted family? Not without external guidance, of which they can only have through the online, and are immediately shunned from?
You all want an easy answer.
There are none here.
There never will be.
The only answer is to practice media literacy, to wait until both sides have come out with their sides of the story, and to understand a very rarely spoken of Golden Rule:
If it isn't hurting anyone nor contributing to harm period, mind your own business.
Otherwise, if still hard pressed:
What do YOU get out of ending the life of someone as they know it?
If it's the same sense of satisfaction a cop would get, I don't know what to tell you.
All I know is that you cannot, AND SHOULD NOT, be doing their "job" for them.
And if you do, wipe that ACAB off of your bio.
We do not use the weapons of the oppressor on our own. ESPECIALLY on our youth.
#vee vibrates#youth liberation#youth rights#I might be kicking the hornet nest here but it really has to be said and I'm so sick of the excuses.#I genuinely thought my generation would be better than this but nah.#I put too much faith in the very same âHumanityâ that can't even be fucking bothered to be humane.#I want to be proven wrong by these communities. PLEASE prove me wrong and do better.#Artists like myself who have much bigger life-threatening things to worry about genuinely couldn't care less for this pettiness.#I will care if somebody has VERIFIABLE IMMEDIATE evidence of serious sâŹx crimes or sc@mming or anything and takes that to the police.#Because if it was that criminal you'd report it. Blasting it on social media fucks ALL your chances of the hand of the law coming down.#( See: Hansen & Onision; all actual predators who weren't reported and milked as âlolcowsâ instead until the crimes climax )#I've been a victim of police negligence myself. I know that a lot of them just don't take the online seriously at all.#But it's no excuse to not try. If a ch!ld prâŹdator is active enough w sufficient evidence it will at least attract SOME legal attention.#But nah I'm probably going to get told off by someone with hella skeletons in their closet over this.#It's always the one who scream the loudest & with most vitriol about the sins of their opponents 24/7 that have the most to hide. Lose even.#I just don't understand why we need to enforce such puritan standards on everybody ESPECIALLY trans women.#I thought us ex-Christians were proud to divorce ourselves from the same methods and beliefs that traumatized us.#People hate cops and priests until they see the advantage in being one I guess.#medical neglect tw#medical tw#medical malpractice tw#death tw
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me trying to talk about the structural reasons why the tyrell girls are treated like shit and why cersei doesnât see the walk of atonement coming
someone leaving the most annoying comment iâve ever seen thatâs now going to be the most popular version of this post bc theyâre a bnf:
#like iâm sorry what is the point of this âwell women enforce the patriarchy tooâ literally acknowledged that with the cersei commentary!!!#and also the point is like. okay but WHO IS MAKING THE LAWS HERE. WHO IS ARRESTING THEM. WHO SETS THE SOCIAL NORM THAT WOMEN MUST BE VIRGIN#AND IF THEY ARENT THEYRE WHORES WHO DESERVE TO BE PARADED THROUGH TOWN NAKED. ITS NOT ANY WOMAN IN WESTEROS. EVEN THE SEPTAS.#and the last paragraph i just. what are you. iâm so.#iâm not posting my liveblogs in the vs tag anymore i donât have the blood pressure for being annoyed so often đđ#why are you lecturing me.#like why is misogyny ALWAYS gotta bring up people going âwell women enforce misogyny tooâ theyâre not the primary enforcers of it.#this is like âbullies are always gayâ type shit like.
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the way blood loves pavement. june 2023
#tfw you were in love with your best friend#and she calls you at 3am on a weekday. asks if she can come over.#sits outside with you. asks if you have a cigarette. you do. you carry them around for the times she asks this.#talks about breaking up with her long term boyfriend. talks about moving out of the house they share.#she tells you that she's lucky to have you. she tells you she's glad you're here.#you tell her she can crash in your spare bedroom for as long as she needs.#you think about the time she called you soulmates.#you think about her saying 'i think we were born to take care of each other.'#you think about your future plans. a house together. a garden for her and a yard for you and your future dog.#you would never push such a relationship on her while she's vulnerable. living under your roof.#and you watch her fall in love with someone else. and someone else. and someone else.#you know it'll never be you. it breaks your heart every day. you know you always want the things you can't have the hardest.#you watch her leave you behind. she always does.#she only ever takes your hand to propel herself forward.#you know she's dragging you down. you can't bring yourself to let go of her hand. you can't.#she tells you she wants to marry him. you smile and tell her you're glad she's happy. it breaks your heart.#why does she only ever need you as a last resort? is it something you lack?#you'll never ask.#she's the one who tells you to enforce your boundaries. but she's the one that pushes past them when you set them for her.#why is it so easy for her to walk past you? to walk over you?#you tell your friends you'll talk to her about how she hurt you.#you know you never will.#later. you ask about the house.#she doesn't know what you're talking about. she'd forgotten completely.#and it breaks your fucking heart.
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Are there conversations to be had about attraction within the lesbian community? Sure.
Do men have any place at all in this conversation? Absofuckinglutely not.
#there are a bunch of popular bloggers on here#who are really invested in the idea of lesbians specifically being with#men specifically and also in antifeminism#and its getting exhausting#especially when they insist they are more connected or experienced#or deeper involved in the community#than any lesbian who contradicts them#who they instantly lable as a terf and a misandrist and too online#and its exhausting ok. why do you care so much#why do you want this so badly#leave us alone ffs#oh but some of them are nb transmasc boygirl fagdyk--#shut. up. shut up shut up#if you hate any lesbian who has a boundary around men then#you dont count and should maybe stay in your lane#no i cant ~enforce~ this but i can think youre a whiny little dickhead and a creep
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I'm actually a super duper predictable and consistent person if you look at me from the right angle: basically my whole drive in life is to explore and discover things and people that noone else dares to explore, i live to bring in whatever is excluded and overlooked and kept off the table. Like, my whole entire head is so oriented towards inclusion that i'm always focused on what is [intentionally or unintentionally] left outside the door of a situation and i'll bring it in. I really have no interest in what is already integrated into a context and accounted for, well worn roads and well practised performances bore me to death. So like, the most consistent thing about me is however a scenario is and whatever way the people are behaving, i'm on the opposite side of it, often introducing supposed "conflict" by being a devil's advocate and a contrarian. What is already known and accepted cannot be really explored, it's already overdone, so i'm going down the road everyone drives past and avoids. Attending a funeral? you're gonna find me joking and laughing, not because i necessarily feel happy, but because it's a question noone asks and i love to explore, "are we accounting for the joys of humanity too?" and if there's a flood of performative positivity i'm gonna bring in gloom, it's almost an involuntary reflex. I need all contexts to be complex and inclusive, so i naturally work in the opposite team. It doesn't really mean that i'm with the team, it just means that i need the context to be diverse. I have zero appreciation for any kind homogenised, streamlined and scripted kind of existence.
Where this puts me in regards to parties is, ho boy i'm fun at parties, almost always guaranteed to be dragged into a fight that i did not intend to be in. But also it feels very, very lonely. 98.99% of people have no appreciation for discovery and exploring the mysteries of the world, and even if they eventually end up loving what you brought to the table, they dont love you for introducing something new and unfamiliar into their life, they find it threatening and uncomfortable.
#and honestly#i very very much miss being around people who appreciate me for what i find and bring back to the world of the living#but this post is particularly brought to you by me catching myself at a 3am#mauling over why i'm vehemently hunting for positivity and advocating for hope right now#even though i'm not particularly a positive person#in fact i'm not a negative person neither#i'm an extremely ''brings balance to a context by introducing the opposite of it'' kinda person#and right now we're in peak nihilism and cynicism culture#a pervasive undercurrent of meaninglessness and superficiality and shallow performative gore to everything#and i'm all about the empty spaces; what is absent from the context#so of course i'm looking for meaning and depth and intricate complex nuanced experiences#and the soft tenderness of life#and people around me are like ''oh so those are your values :) '' and they're not#i dont work with values i work with negative spaces and What Is Not Included#and i can switch teams very easily#by the simple fact that i'm a contrarian. Like the moment i feel clocked i start to get itchy#because i dont care for this or that; whatever is predominantly enforced i'm on the opposite side of it#i'm really just here for diversity and complexity ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ
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